Wednesday, November 12

worried

feeling a little worried tonite...

a couple of weeks ago ken, my hubby, was on his way back from houston and decided to stop and stay the night with his parents cause he was really tired and it was close to where he needed to be the next day for work. his dad has been suffering for years, long story, 5 or 6(lost count it might be more) back surgeries later, he can't feel half of his body and the half he does feel he can't move very well. he is in constant pain. his next step would be morphine, but he won't do it, cause he would basically be in bed 24/7. we have said it for a least 5 years now that we all think he won't last much longer. and we try to mentally prepare ourselves. but he keeps truckin along. never complains. ken has tried to come to terms with letting him go. and it has been hard watching him try. when he stayed the night he said his dad slept in the recliner and could only sleep about 15 minutes at a time. he said he looked so tired, not just from lack of sleep. my heart breaks for them both! when ken got home the following night he said he was ready to let him go. it took all he had to see his dad the way he did when he was there. i don't have the words to comfort him. i mean how can i? i've never lost someone so close to me. my heart aches for him. i myself can't imagine life without "pop pop". i'm so scared i won't know how to handle it when the time does come.

the hospital "says" they have been trying to reach him for TWO months. wtf!!! come on people a letter would have come faster! anyways, he has 90% blockage. don't know all the details yet but he has a surgery scheduled for tomorrow and another tuesday.

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my grandmother has recently moved from PR to philadelphia due to health reasons. the best doctors for her "just" happen to be where my dad lives. (THANK YOU GOD). they found out what was causing the bleeding, after almost a year. she only has less than 30% of one kidney left and it was clogged with a mass. turned out to be cancer. they removed it. she is on chemo now. this all happen about three weeks ago. my brother only lives about 9 hours from me and has two young babies so she is there visiting for a month. we've been trying to get up there to see her. but one thing or another (money!) has stopped us. i got a call from my brother yesterday that she went to the hospital for chest pains. she had 75% blockage. she is resting now so i'm just waiting to hear from family.


5 comments:

Ki said...

oh Aimee, I'm do sorry that you are having to deal with this. I wish I had the right words for you to offer some comfort during this time. Please know that I am thinking of you and will say a prayer for both your FIL and Grandmother. May God give you strength and watch over your loved ones.

Jenn said...

Oh no Aimee ?! Im so sorry you have all this stuff to deal with and i know how your heart must break, mine breaks for you guys, know im thinking about ya .

Think of Edward and smile :)

Denise said...

Aimee, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. In regard to comforting your husband, don't feel bad...sometimes there are no words. Just being there, listening and supporting speaks volumes. When the times comes you will surprise yourself and will handle it. This isn't something you can pre-plan it will just happen. For now...don't worry about that part. Just be there. I have faith that you will handle everything as it needs to be handled. I'm here for you!

karen m. (akaliz) said...

of course i'm here for the girls if you should have to leave quickly for any reason.

i know this may sound weird, but make sure ken tells his dad how he feels about him. don't keep anything in. my dad never told his dad. my grandfather's death was sudden and so many things were left unsaid between the two of them and it bothered my dad as long as i can remember.

i'll be saying prayers for both your grandma and father in law as always.

Jenn said...

Coming back to check how everything is , hope all is well, 5 days till you get to see your man on the big screen !! LOL .... trying to make ya smile , teehee.

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